The Untold Stories of Wonderland

Somehow i still smile….

All the things that MATTER in Life are blowing up in mine, the stuff that really MATTERS is what I always seem to mess up in life. If something seems to hold like real world weight I absolutely crumble under the most important of times. It seems like when I was younger finding happiness seemed so difficult and so much of the chaos in our lives was created by feeling and emotion and if that was off we were really off. I worked really hard to figure out how to feel “happy” or “content” or whatever. I don’t really know, happiness, at least for me, is a lot less emotional now then it once was, but I am also much much happier then I once was so in my opinion emotion not being attached to happiness is a rather good thing in my life. All the messed up stuff just needs to float away, haha I wish, but seriously I’m tired of “real life” already for sure. I’m getting my ass kicked out here, but hey it’s pretty fun at least being able to still smile…..

Long Time Away

Hmmm well today as i was picking out my outfit(yes …. i pick out outfits PRIOR to wearing them, sometimes up to a week prior, no I’m not lame… I’m fasionable) for Alice In Wonderland tomorrow night a thought flashed through my head …. I have not been on my tumblr to blog in quiet sometime. So, here I am, back to blogging.

OBSESSIONS:

Rusko (dub)

Caspa (dub)

Afrojack (electro)

Jflash (boulder dj!) (elctro)

Alice in Wonderland (movie)

MAG (video game)

Water & Lemon (drink!)

ABDC (show)

Dexter (show)

Last season of Nip/Tuck (show :(!!!)

Gliding (dance!!)

Go-Go (dance!!)

Krump (dance!!)

Oragnics (food/products)

MMJ (health product)

Droid (phone)

“Chocolate Milk! It Does A Baby Good” ~ Tommy Pickles

Hahaha I guess I should start by explaining the name, because to me, at least, it’s pretty funny. I don’t really know how many other girls enjoyed playing video games when they were younger, but i definitely did.  Although I did play the normal racing, shooting, and story games along with my brother,  personally I really enjoyed the board game style video games; which undoubtedly stems from my love of real life board games. Anyways, they’re was a Rugrats game for N64 that I absolutely LOVED, and when you were playing as Tommy Pickles and something happened that he liked, like he got a Reptar bar he would say “Chocolate Milk! It does a baby good” hahaha. Now how was i reminded of this? Well Hyper Crush’s DISKOTRON has a lyric that says “Dancing does a body right.” Which set off the light bulb of my trip back to one of my favorite childhood video games :).

Hmmmm. I wish I could say that’s really the only thing on my mind. But it’s definitely not. I think far too much about everything and I wish I could say that that is something I love about myself, but it’s really not. On one hand i suppose I do enjoy my curiosity for life, I learn a ton of new stuff everyday because I google almost everything that interests me throughout the day, from infomercials to references on shows, it’s really cool all the stuff you learn from doing that. However, on the less awesome side of my constant thinking is thinking about everything everyone says and does. Its SO annoying! More then likely it does absolutely nothing positive in my life as well. Well I suppose that’s enough bitching about that I’m gonna move on to stuff I’m lookin’ forward too. But, I’m probably gonna write that tomorrow. Night Ya’ll, and Love Ya.

Scream.

SCREAM

pause. 2…. 3… 4….

Appreciate the silence.

Look at these two sounds.

More powerful, descriptive, and versatile then any words;

And they’re JUST SOUNDS.

Both can be defined,

But definition comes nothing close to meaning.

So go scream!

And let it mean WHATEVER it needs to.

And then fall in love with the silence,

and just …. Let it be.